My fashion blog is for fashion stylings typically.. Anyone who knows me knows I’m not shy or quiet but I do keep things to myself….. So excuse me why I rant a lil bit….
I do not know how to put into words my frustration with sl contests. I enter i get only so far then bam… I’m done. Its not a bad thing i love doing them I am just kicking and knocking on every door I come across and its like I don’t have the golden ticket just yet… Eventually someone will give it to me lol..
Tried for MVW, got in, got cut. so no top 13 for me …Tried for MISS Vero Modern 2016 made it only to pre- finalist stage… Hoping I have better luck with some other things in the works. Sometimes I question my self as all models do * i should have done this or done that * etc… But that kinds of thinking only serves the purpose of driving you insane.You just have to keep on pushing and eventually something will give way.
I never even thought i WOULD BE A pageant GIRL.. AND i GUESS i AM STILL NOT ONE. ( LOL) I sometimes feel I’m too this or that of a stylist to ever really be a pageant queen. Im more bold than soft , More avant garde than frilly.. blessing and a curse in itself…one day someone will notice and see I’m a talented person both in SL and out of SL and i will get my chance to shine.
I keep thinking if i would not have taken a sl break where I would be now.. thats another thought that can drive me nuts.. but When I left there was so much rl and then no computer so kinda hard without a computer to play sl…
For my fellow models out there the struggle is real.. you just cannot let it break you ..you have to let it give you scars and calouses because that toughens you up for the next fight…I have always been a fighter.. I don’t need those speeches that say keep trying.. I know what I have to give will eventually be seen by those who matter in this virtual world.. Big dreams don’t come easy.. if the did they wouldn’t be so big…..
Just a little rant and some advise
Mini Style Card~ What i am wearing today…
*~*Damselfly*~*Frank ( mens ) Hair
Earring CTC Platinum By RYCA
M.O.D.A.N.M.E.S.H – Turtle neck for Maitreya
Garbaggio // Grid Boots – Silver
now i also never post videos but this is how i feel right now .. excuse the lang for the faint of heart…
You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ’em
But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ’em
‘Cause ain’t no way I’m a let you stop me from causin’ mayhem
When I say I’m a do somethin’ I do it,
I don’t give a damn what you think,
I’m doin’ this for me, so fuck the world, feed it beans,
It’s gassed up, if it thinks it’s stoppin’ me
I’m a be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearin’ down your balcony