Just thinking and pondering ..

My fashion blog is for fashion stylings typically.. Anyone who knows me knows I’m not shy or quiet but I do keep things to myself….. So excuse me why I rant a lil bit….

I do not know how to put into words my frustration with sl contests. I enter i get only so far then bam… I’m done. Its not a bad thing i love doing them I am just kicking and knocking on every door I come across and its like I don’t have the golden ticket just yet… Eventually someone will give it to me lol..

Tried for MVW, got in, got cut. so no top 13 for me …Tried for MISS Vero Modern 2016 made it only to pre- finalist stage… Hoping I have better luck with some other things in the works. Sometimes I question my self as all models do * i should have done this or done that * etc… But that kinds of thinking only serves the purpose of driving you insane.You just have to keep on pushing and eventually something will give way.

I never even thought i WOULD BE A pageant GIRL.. AND i GUESS i AM STILL NOT ONE. ( LOL) I sometimes feel I’m too this or that of a stylist to ever really be a pageant queen. Im more bold  than soft , More avant garde than frilly.. blessing and a curse in itself…one day someone will notice and see I’m a talented person both in SL and out of SL and i will get my chance to shine.

I keep thinking if i would not have taken a sl break where I would be now.. thats another thought that can drive me nuts.. but When I left there was so much rl and then no computer so kinda hard without a computer to play sl…

For my fellow models out there the struggle is real.. you just cannot let it break you ..you have to let it give you scars and calouses  because that toughens you up for the next fight…I have always been a fighter.. I don’t need those speeches that say keep trying.. I know what I have to give will eventually be seen by those who matter in this virtual world.. Big dreams don’t come easy.. if the did they wouldn’t be so big…..

Just a little rant and some advise

xoxox Vann

Mini Style Card~ What i am wearing today…

*~*Damselfly*~*Frank ( mens ) Hair

Earring CTC Platinum By RYCA

M.O.D.A.N.M.E.S.H – Turtle neck for Maitreya

Garbaggio // Grid Boots – Silver

now i also never post videos but this is how i feel right now .. excuse the lang for the faint of heart…

 

You can try and read my lyrics off of this paper before I lay ’em
But you won’t take the sting out these words before I say ’em
‘Cause ain’t no way I’m a let you stop me from causin’ mayhem
When I say I’m a do somethin’ I do it,
I don’t give a damn what you think,
I’m doin’ this for me, so fuck the world, feed it beans,
It’s gassed up, if it thinks it’s stoppin’ me
I’m a be what I set out to be, without a doubt undoubtedly
And all those who look down on me I’m tearin’ down your balcony

 

 

 

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7 comments

  1. Seems to me you are heading in the right direction. I don’t know how long you have been a model in SL or “pageant Girl” lol but it often takes years. I have been doing it for 8 and for the first 7 I got far more no’s than yeses until I finally got to the point where I realized, Hey I am pretty good and I do have a lot to offer the modeling world in SL and you know what I HAVE NOTHING TO PROVE TO ANYONE. Sure it was hard and you have to develop a thick skin but you also have to remain humble and gracious as well as kind, It does take years sometimes to build up a good rep as a model but most give up before that and start getting negative. There is much favoritism and cliques but if you believe in yourself and your abilities that is what matters most. Though it may take years to get to that point, it only takes seconds to destroy a rep. Not talking about you , Just in general. Keep your head high, keep honing your craft and you will make it to the top “or at least your idea of the top” As long as yo love it you will get there…Because it is always more about passion than ability. Never lose your passion. Just my 10 cents lol

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    1. totally agree with you..I prefer runway and print … truthfully but pageants are a way to get your name out there and they are fun so If i place or don’t place its fun and passion i got tons … and yes everything you said is on point thats why i sometimes wonder those missing years i was off the grid set me back a little bit but thats ok..I’M HERE NOW HAHAH ! LOL !!

      TY for your lovely comment ❤

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      1. Vann, you said a mouth full but one other point that I’d like to make is this; Models that work hard, give up your personal time, put your whole heart into what you do sometimes seem to still get overlooked. It seems some of these contests, and agencies are more about who you know, and seem more like playing favorites. It seems like the same people are winning all the time. We all have experienced that feeling that no matter how hard you try to do your best, be unique, and do a good job, we still don’t seem to get ahead. I’ve been lucky most of my career making my first Super Model tag in 4yrs of modeling, but have also experienced that feeling. For anyone that is just starting out or thinking about being a model do your best, be unique, but be yourself and have fun. SL is supposed to be all about having fun and when we want careers some forget that it’s supposed to be fun. Then there are some like me, I admit, that I don’t think of SL as just a game. There are real people behind these avatars and we do get hurt. I gave up a lot and have worked very hard in my 6yrs to be where I am. I concentrated on my career and climbing that ladder of success and gave up so much. Please if you get anything from Vann or myself it’s remember you are a good individual and will have times of hurt, failure, but also great times of success and FUN! I love all of my friends and co workers and wouldn’t change anything to be where I am today. Have fun, be yourself, and enjoy your time in this Virtual World that some of us love so much! Vann, I know you’re a good person, unique, and a good stylist. I just wanted to thank you for voicing what so many of us think and feel. It’s good for a new or potential model to hear what they might go through in this world of fashion/modeling. I ‘m honored to call you my friend and have had the priviledge of working with you. Stay the way you are, and you will get your chance. I am confident of that fact. I love ya gf. Take care everyone, big hugs, and love! Blue Porchers xoxo

        Just my 2 cents!

        Vann, hope you don’t mind but I reblogged this whole thing. haha

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  2. Reblogged this on SL Fashion Blog from a Model's POV and commented:
    Vann, you said a mouth full but one other point that I’d like to make is this; Models that work hard, give up your personal time, put your whole heart into what you do sometimes seem to still get overlooked. It seems some of these contests, and agencies are more about who you know, and seem more like playing favorites. It seems like the same people are winning all the time. We all have experienced that feeling that no matter how hard you try to do your best, be unique, and do a good job, we still don’t seem to get ahead. I’ve been lucky most of my career making my first Super Model tag in 4yrs of modeling, but have also experienced that feeling. For anyone that is just starting out or thinking about being a model do your best, be unique, but be yourself and have fun. SL is supposed to be all about having fun and when we want careers some forget that it’s supposed to be fun. Then there are some like me, I admit, that I don’t think of SL as just a game. There are real people behind these avatars and we do get hurt. I gave up a lot and have worked very hard in my 6yrs to be where I am. I concentrated on my career and climbing that ladder of success and gave up so much. Please if you get anything from Vann or myself it’s remember you are a good individual and will have times of hurt, failure, but also great times of success and FUN! I love all of my friends and co workers and wouldn’t change anything to be where I am today. Have fun, be yourself, and enjoy your time in this Virtual World that some of us love so much! Vann, I know you’re a good person, unique, and a good stylist. I just wanted to thank you for voicing what so many of us think and feel. It’s good for a new or potential model to hear what they might go through in this world of fashion/modeling. I ‘m honored to call you my friend and have had the priviledge of working with you. Stay the way you are, and you will get your chance. I am confident of that fact. I love ya gf. Take care everyone, big hugs, and love! Blue Porchers xoxo

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  3. V, I know you’re good at what you do. YOU know you’re good at what you do. There’s a reason some of us don’t enter contests, and a lot of that reason is some of what you said here. Style, as I have always said, is highly subjective. Personally, I think you’ve got mad styling skills, and don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. Not all of us are going to fit in the pageant mold, and that’s OK. Stay true to yourself and your vision, and you will be fine. I’ve done this for years and years, as you know, and I’m not a “supermodel.” I’m not “famous.” I’m not the greatest stylist to ever walk a runway in SL. What I am – and what you are – is a talented model who cares about what she does and does it to the best of her ability. That’s what matters. Titles don’t matter. A title doesn’t necessarily equate to a great – or even good – model. A title means nothing more than someone liked what someone else did in that moment. It says nothing about the person, and even less about that person’s integrity, which to me is far more important than an ability to choose accessories and makeup.

    The bottom line here is this: The only person you need to impress is yourself. You could ask a hundred different models who the big names in modeling are, and you’d get a hundred different answers, all dependent on what agency they’re with and who they know. It’s really not that important. In the fashion industry, names come and go, faces are interchangeable (some so nearly identical it really creeps me out), and in the end, if we leave a mark, great. If we leave with nothing more than the knowledge that we had a great time doing what we do … well … that’s OK too. Love ya, girlfriend.

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